thought

be good. such a simple saying. but to be in that way, to be the one, it takes me long enough till today. I do hope I never too late to change. I do hope this person you seeing would be somehow better than before. someone that change for good. someone that parents would proud of. for me to change people, I have to change first. I have to be good first. we always have a chance to become better. either to take it or to leave it. how many chances that I stood up for I wouldn't know. Allah do love His servants by providing many chances without us notice. we just move on our life and remain in the same spot. O Allah! I seek for Your forgiveness for ignoring you and coming back to You for something. I seek for Your guidance to take me along the truth path. Islam is not "we are better than you". Islam is about "let me show you something that is better for you" even so I'm ignoring you, You won't leave me alone. yet, You are thousands closer. O Allah! bring me back to the right path. 

misery

hi there! it's been a while since my last entry. it just that me don't know what to write about. there are a lot of things that just can't put into words, it just meant to be keep inside. problems. always come in a way. but thank you for making me a stronger and growing up girl. you taught me very well. sometimes things that we want so damn much just not right to be ours. I learnt that a long time ago. even how hard I try how often I pray for that it just not gonna be mine. it's not that I'm giving up but I just putting my hopes a bit lower so that I'm not gonna hurt so much. but I'm holding onto this forever ' put your faith on Allah. He will never disappoint you'  it's kind a bit relief by writing these down. I just hope everything is gonna be okay. till then, hugs kisses readers! 

for HER...

Hi there! disebabkan ada seorang kawan saya ni da buat saya terharu, maka saya di sini pon ingin mendedikasikan something for my favourite friend and she’ll always be... n promise me that u’ll never ever bring up  this matter again..tahu je la malu saye nnt mcm mne..hee..

Here we go..

I have a friend that always be there for me.

Not even when i’m  happy but even when i’m upset.

She’ll do anything for me. Maybe can be said as everything like she always said.

She hear all my complaints, my never ever stop whining and all my pointless dramas.

She make up my day with her jokes and stories of abang ipar.

I figured out that we can be connected in a mysterious way without even speaking. we think the same thing and just say the word as the same. maybe we have an amazing magical powers that tied us together.